My 'half sister' + since St. Patricks Day

My 'half sister' Marcia - and St. Patricks Day

Ive been thinking more about my dad leaving that credit card statement out on the counter along with the 'Indulgent' brand trail mix that he had to make a special trip to a store to buy- along with his Cheetos.  

As I said, hes been making special trips to buy these things - that seem to fit the narrative of the sabotage network for at least the past year or two (when I started noticing).

Im not saying my dad is all bad.   He has worked hard his whole life as a farmer - and he was in the National Guard. He told me he joined the Guard so he wouldnt get drafted - because the draft lottery was in place then - and he would have had to go to war if his name had been pulled.   So he joined the National Guard.  At that time the National Guard wasnt in any danger of going to war like it is now.  But he did volunteer for the National Guard.

Dad never spent much time with us - and beer, tv, and going to  pornography shops were more of a priority in his free time while we grew up - than spending time with his kids.   I endured a lot of verbal abuse while working with him on the farm (as I believe he was letting out his frustrations with the constant war between my mother and him).  He made me work over and over - under conditions that made me very sick.   I got sick every time I worked in the one specific area - and at least twice I got pneumonia from that exposure.   I went to an allergist regularly and he knew I was violently allergic to the livestock confinement nursery where he continued to make me work.

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In the spring of 2015 dad quit communicating with me -  after I had been farming and doing other projects with him for 2 years prior to that.

It was as if he started listening to the sabotage network - and would not talk to me about whatever lies they were telling him.

And then in the last year or so, hes been making these special trips to buy cheap whiskey brands (prior to this he usually only drank Black Velvet) - with sabotage network themed messages, along with all kinds of other sabotage themed stuff - which he would place at the end of the countertop. 

I later assumed that this was a visible spot - for a hidden cam - so then I would sometimes write notes saying that he was putting this stuff there - and not me - and leave them beside the items he went to buy to place there.  

I asked dad several times why he was putting this stuff there, but he denied that he knew anything about it.  I knew he was lying, but what else could I do.

Originally I thought the 'Indulgent' brand trail mix - had to do with the fact I had eaten more food than normal while they were gone.   Which is why I got upset and broke open the bag.

But since I posted about that - I wonder if the 'trail mix' part - had something to do with the sabotage network framing as well. 

My mom had left a message on my phone - that shed like me to feed the dog while they were gone - and that I was welcome to stay at the house - before they lefft on the 17th.  She emphasized that I was their son and that they both loved me.

So I posted on Facebook that I would be staying at the house over the weekend.   And like I said, I did eat quite a bit that weekend (indulgent).   I was stressed because of the argument I had with my parents before my mother had called and left that message - and not knowing what I was going to do with no money, no drivers license, and being stuck out in the country. 

There are a bunch of trails on my parents property - which my dad mowed - so that he could better navigate the property ( I think 42 acres or so on this side of the river).   I had used these trails in 2014 - 2016 to run or hike (only during daytime).   The dog would often follow along.  These hikes, some along the river, were documented in my poetry about Nature at that time. 

On the night of the 17th after I had come to the barn from the trailer, the dog started alerting to the grass South of the barn home - and she wanted to be outside all night long.  

I believe on the 18th, I saw a light in the woods to the South when I was letting her in.   I couldnt tell how far away it was, so I didnt investigate it.  

Since that night on the 17th when I came over to the barn home, the dog has been alerting to both sound and smell at night - mostly to the South toward the grass and where most of the trails are.  She wants to be outside all night long, which is not normal for her.   When she is out, she is constantly alerting to the South or to the West woods.

The last two or three nights, the dog has been alerting to the woods to the West.  

Since she started alerting on the 17th, Ive suspected that someone may have been trying to get close enough on the ground to use my wifi signal.  

But given the 'Indulgent' trail mix my dad left by his credit card statement I wonder if the 'trail mix' part had something to do with the sabotage network framing - in addition to the 'indulgent' part - that I had been eating a lot that weekend.

Many strange vehicles have been driving by slowly since the 17th as well.  This is when the sabotage network is most active - when I notice a lot of unfamiliar vehicles - and many more than normal - driving by on gravel.

If I was going to commit any crime, I would not tell people where Im going to be  on the internet - especially when I know Im being surveilled 24 hours a day.

So if something happened since the 17th (St. Patricks Day) - Ive not done anything illegal.   I was never on the grass trails and I only made one quick trip to the trailer to get my shotgun and some extra clothes for the weekend at the barn home.   Ive been at the barn home since that time - and have not moved more than 30 feet outside - to feed or pet the dog.

Its very likely the sabotage network has been trying to tap my wifi signal during this time since St. Patricks Day and possibly before that as well.  I knew this was a risk when I got the wifi hotspot - as that is why I quit using wifi prior.   But then I couldnt go to the Fairbank Library - and could not drive - so I took the risk of getting wifi again.

What my dad has been doing - along with my mom not listening to what Ive been saying about the sabotage network and attacking me in addition to that - has caused the most pain to me - in regard to my outlook on life and confidence - despite that Ive been dealing with the sabotage network, massive surveillance, and ripoff artists for years now. 

They have never been good for my confidence - but my dad playing these mind games with me for 2 years now - and denying that he is playing mental games with me (while knowing Im being surveilled, harassed, sabotaged, and framed) - is very disappointing.  And my mom seems to value her local fame of her barn home - over knowing that Im suffering every day (of which Ive told her everything since 2013).

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Beginning on St. Patricks Day when my parents left, this all feels like a setup by my 'half sister' Marcia - to lure my parents away for a few days - so the sabotage network could stage something.   Ive said many times now that I feel Marcia has been trying to tear our family apart - and I feel she was part of harassing my real sister Tracy Lea Heineman before she jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge.  I feel she is likely an imposter because she has not shown any proof, but even if she is blood related, she has been trying to tear our family apart since she appeared out of nowhere when I was 21 years old.

And all I know about my dads behavior - is that immediately after their trip to visit Marcia and her family - he made another one of his special trips to buy something that seemed to indicate a sabotage network framing - and leave his credit card statement right beside it - which again he never does (leave his credit card statement out).  He also never buys trail mix.  Cheetos is normal for him.  Trail mix, Ive never seen him buy.